i did a little soul searching this past weekend. coincidence or ironic that it was july 4th weekend. day of freedom. liberty. independence.

long story short: i kinda when AWOL this weekend. i didn't really tell anyone where i was going. i just went. i just had this feeling to get out. so i did. only a couple of people actually knew i was going to see them. most of the people i saw were just surprised to see me. i think i didn't know how much i needed the time away until i actually got away. and it was good. it was really good.

| friday | left SF really early | had lunch with kira and lily in LA | drove out to PHX | dinner with neil, mikey, carmen, jessica, and george | hangout at tempe marketplace | saturday | left PHX | arrive in TUS @ dave and christe's casa | surprised christe | hung out w/ c, d, and b (baby beniah - fyi, definitely one of the cutest babies i've ever known) | christe's baptism | saw phil | happy 4th of july | sunday | left TUS | arrive in SD | walked around in little italy | watched the sunset | monday | beach time | surf | layout on the beach | mission beach + pacific beach | carne asada fries | me time | dinner with amna | so good to catch up with her | texting with lawrence -- don't tell!! | tuesday | leave SD | arrive in SF |

there's a reason why i go to people. i like to make things happen. if i didn't go this weekend, i wouldn't see 75% of the people that i did see. i was able to go... there will be a time i will not be able to just pick up and go... so i took advantage of this time... i was able to go.... so i did...

... to be continued.

 

*edit: sorry for those i didn't get to see along the way-- it was a short weekend and i covered a lot of ground! :)

being a story teller... is not my favorite thing to do ... but i know that it is necessary. being able to share the stories of your love in my life, is an honor and a blessing. i hope i do you proud.

i thought i was following my heart, but i think that sometimes i need to lead my heart to the things i want to love. i want to love you. and so i lead my heart to you. wanting to love you is so different from actually loving you.

.my life.
.the lessons i've learned.
.i'm still trying to figure it out.
.i'm going to share as much with you as i can.
.as my heart will allow.
.if i leave something out.
.it's not because i don't want to tell you.
.i'm just trying to find the right time.
(the right words)
.to tell you.
.the right time to ask.
.the right time to answer.
.if anything.
.i've learned it's all about timing.
.my timing is not so great.
.but i'm trying.
.forgive me for the poor choices i've made.
.hear my heart.
.and you will understand.
.i'm not all the things i do.
.i admit.
.at times.
.i've acted out of character.
.but i want to be better.
.i strive to be better.
.i know i can be better.
.with you.
.life is a journey.
.i'm feel like i've just nearly started.
.because i still have so much to learn.
.but with your help.
.with an open mind.
.with a faithful heart.
.with a lot of grace
.and with a ton of love.
.i will get through this.
.i will live this life.
.for you.
.and only you.
.the way i was meant to live this life.
.beause of you.
.the love of my life.
.all glory and praise be to you.
.Lord, You have my heart.
.and i will search for yours.
.Jesus take my life and lead me on.
.let me be to You a sacrifice.
.and i will praise You Lord.
.and i will sing of love come down.
.and as you show Your face.
.we'll see Your glory here.
.amen.